So I made another mistake.
I had just asked a close friend on a date that went beautifully. Only to bedazzled by another girl I met on a trip to Kogi for one of my best friends weddings.
As a guy who wouldn’t cheat or have two girlfriends at the same time… I had to pick one to pursue.
So here I use my head.
Girl number 2 laughed at my jokes, she was a medical doctor which could come in handy with my condition. There was also no history or baggage.
So I opened the second door but was I in for a surprise.
I should have seen the signs, we’d been on more than 5 dates, 5 dates and no kiss good night. She claimed that when the moment is right it will happen. Another reason was not in front of her gate so her parents don’t know their 27 year old daughter is kissing boys.
But I just wanted it to work so much… I mean her birthday is the same as my mother’s… that has got to be a sign right?
Friend zoned as soon as I tried to make it official. For reasons like I want to focus on my career or I’m not sure where I will be in 2 years.
Finally she told me she just wasn’t ready to be in a relationship. I accept and all but why tell me just now. I would never abandon girl number 1.
Now I know what your thinking… Girl number 1 should not be a replacement. But to me she is not… She is wilder, freer, unapologetic, funny and fun… which speaks to my heart (after all she was my high school prom date) but being bipolar I have been adviced to take the stable options.
So here is my response: f*ck that!!!
I am mending my heart by never playing it safe again.
I will wait to surrender to God’s will, cause I know that wife he has planned for me will make all the exs make sense.
And its not like I am not grateful for them or didnt grow though them … So thank you, next.